WITHOUT YOU NEAR

“And a girl should say:

It must be wonderful to live and grow old.

Look at my mother, how rich and still she is! 

 

And a young man should think: By Jove

my father has faced all weathers, but it's been a life!”

 

- From “Beautiful Old Age” by D. H. Lawrence 

 

not a day goes by

it doesn’t cross my mind

cuts right through

the thought of losing you

 

suddenly reduced

to a helpless child

utterly confused

lost in the wild

 

will I ever feel safe again

without you near?

and so I fear

 

some regret

words left unsaid

so much to say

left too late

that’s not going to be me

listen close 

hear what I say

 

will I ever feel safe again

without you near?

 

and so I’ll relish in the time we have

and I’ll try not to be sad

and I’ll be grateful for every day

 

but…

 

what am I to do without you?

how am I supposed to carry on?

what am I to do without you?

how do I pretend to be strong?

 

what am I to do?

what am I to do?

what am I to do?

 

what am I to do?